Am auzit o poveste . M`a marcat . M`a bagat in transa. Cand sunt singura am o privire goala ... meditez . E o poveste cat se poate de reala si totodata trista ... mi`a intrat in vene . Nu am sa povestesc ... e personal. Totul a devenit personal . Sunt singura . Eu si povestea . Eu si gandurile. Eu si imaginile ce`mi trec prin minte . Eu si lucrurile pe care as vrea sa le fac . Sa schimb ceva .. ceea ce realizez e ca pierderile pe care le suferim in viata , fie ele de toate felurile , sunt poate , la un anumit moment ... cel mai bun lucru . Acum povestea a devenit a mea si ma macina faptul ca auzind`o ma cunosc mai bine. Refuz sa cred ca eu sunt personajul ala . Refuz sa`mi asum rolul pe care l`am jucat cu atata mandrie in privire . Acum privirea e departe . Acolo... cu gandul . Departe de realitatea asta rece si intunecata ce tine mortis sa ne dezbrace si sa ne umileasca . Orgoliul e jos . Topit de ura . Mandria a distrus totul . Inocenta nu`mi mai lumineaza adolescenta . Adolescenta ?! Am trait eu perioada asta ? Negreala din lucrurile facute si gandite a pus stapanire pe constinta mea . Daca mai exista . Voi supravietui, asta e clar . Dar superficial , artificial.. Cu gandul ca regretele vor disparea ...

poveste.

"povestile au un sfarsit ..si nu intotdeauna unul fericit .."

"- You know that the life is short .. You can wake up one day and I`m not there . All your dreams and anything you wish for anyone .. gone! Just like that. You know ... people... people get old and all things change and ... and situations change and what I want is just.. I want this moment right now.. this day. My feelings for you .. the way you look right now .. the way I look at you .. I want this to last forever .. you know?
- Yeah I know.. we`ve always had this and nothing can change that . I.. I.. just want you to know no matter what you always have somebody here for you.. always and .. I`m never gonna leave you . I`m never gonna leave you! I love you!
- I know.. I know!
- Don`t ever leave me!
- I won`t!
- Don`t ever leave me!
- I won`t!  I won`t !!
...............................................
- Tell me you dindn`t that ! Tell me you dindn`t that ! Tell me you didn`t do it!
- What ?!
- Tell me you didn`t do it! Please, please ! Tell me you didn`t do it! Oh my God ! Oh my God ! Oh my God ! Oh my Goood ! Please don`t do it , please don`t do it. Pleaseeee!
- I wanted to tell you!
- I love you so much!
- I love you too !
- Nooo !
- Stop, stop, stop just listen..
- How could you do this to me? How could you do this ? Oh my God , oh my God ..
- I tought from all people you would understand . Why don`t you understand ?! I did it for us !!! For us ! You supposed to make it easyer ! I tought you`ll be proud of me ! I tought at least from all people you would understand why I did this!
- Oh God . Oh my God !!
- I`m never gonna leave you ..."


As they say: "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas" , what happened between us remains between us. And that`s all .
 *there are so much things I wanted to say ,  for you to know... feelings that make me die inside but I think that in this case silence is better .
                                                                                                      forever yours, M.                                                             

after love

obsesia 3.

lovesick

* La multi multi multi ani (alaturi de mine), Riko ! :X

azi, mititelul, a implinit 4 anisori . 

sa`mi traiesti :x

efect

the 'madalina' effect si reciproca . Nu s`a stins. E acolo si va ramane vesnic. In ce stare si forma nu putem stii sau decide. Ce am primit n`am valorat , n`am apreciat si`am pierdut (plural).

*e vacanta , e soare, e mare. 

:: tot ce conteaza cu adevarat e greu de sesizat .. ca fericirea e scumpa si multa s`a dat ::

:: fericirea`i de moment .. pana la primul strat de praf de fapt ::

dubla personalitate.

...sau personalitatea multipla, cum se numeste in psihologie sunt convinsa ca exista . Visul de aseara imi confirma asta . Visul frumos...

15.08.2010 - cin5i. (1+5=6+8=14=5) tu ma intelegi .. 

Dear Santa...

imi pregatesc listuta pentru mosu`... si trebuie neaparat sa adaug noua mea iubire !

uite cat e de scump !

 yorkshire terrier toy.

 

aaa siiii Santaaa !!! .... sa fie baietel :)) !

iesire din banal.

*2010. vara. munte.
am lipsit un pic. mi`am luat o mini-minivacanta la munte . putin , dar frumos. obositooorrrr, dar frumos.
am postat niste poze aici .

* pupici :*

...

*2009. putin 2010. iarna. munte .

new : Eminem ft Rihanna - Love the way you lie

Take me back to the place where we were free 
Didn't have a care in the world you see 
All that really matter was 
You and me 
Time stood still the world was frozen
A pretty pictured love was sculpted
Best friends and lovers till eternity 
You and me 
But now the seasons changing 
Everythings been rearranging and
now your kisses seem so cold 
To busy to do the things we use to 
It ain't the same anymore 
I know things haven't been the way that they should
But I know if you try than baby you could
Take me back 
Let's relive this special moment
The moments that we took for granted
They way you held my face in your hands
Caught in amazing love so true 
Never thought that I'd loose you 
Baby what am I to do
But now the seasons changing
Everythings been rearranging and
your touches seem so cold
To busy to do the things we use to
It ain't the same anymore 
Baby we can't deny
What we had it was right for so long 
Where did we go wrong?
So let's try to replay all these magical days 
'Cause we've been trough the grey cancel stormclouds away !!!

Happy birthday, dear C !

scurt si la obiect .

hihihi` <3

Movie : Ice castles 2010

Lexi , neexperimentata si acum , in urma unui accident , oarba ... reuseste sa participe la concursul national de patinaj ... cu ajutorul iubitului ei nick . frumos , frumos, frumos !!